(M)omentary (I)ntermission (A)llowed

It's been a while since I've written on here....well its been almost a whole semester sadly. There's been a number of occaions where I've been like I absolutely have to blog this but, poof, the next minute I forgot and it remained untouched. It's kinda funny how it's during finals week, when I'm spending (or supposed to be spending) multiple hours cramming info into my head to make up for the times spent falling asleep in class or simply not understanding what the heck the professor was talking about...GREAT...that i am finally blogging. Really though?


My plan was to take a quick study break, so I logged unto blogspot, hoping to read stuff about hair and beauty etc, its been too long since ive read my fav pass times: natural hairstyles tutorial articles and vids. Well i logged unto the wrong account and well here I am.


So I'll use this opportunity to talk about my semester thus far which can be summed up in two words: ROLLERCOASTER RIDE. Both emotionally and spiritually. I mean emotionally, I definitely had some tear jerkers this semester, moments of pure frustration and mixed in with some more frustration combined with the desire to isolate myself etc. Yup a rollercoaster. I learned that I'm not the superwoman I thought I was lol. I defintely tried taking Physics and the lab, Chem and lab, with 3 other classes, being a major character in a theatre production, being on the cross country team, a board member of 2 organizations.....lets just say, first 2 weeks I was getting NO sleep and lo and behold, my body started breaking down (sick). That was the sign. Derin SLOOOOOOWW down.

Spiritually, well, I'm not exactly sure when it happened. Most likely started with "oh I'll read my Bible in the morning, I have to get this work done" to "Oh I'm tired, I'll read it the next day." Next thing I know, I haven't read my bible in weeks. shame shame. Very soon, I'm no longer talking to God at random times (when walking etc). Then something happens and I'm like "Oh God, I feel so far away from you!" I remember there was a day not too long ago, when I knew God was not pleased with my actions. It was a quick realization and literally I walked in fear the next week scared of God's wrath. I think I realized what it means to fear the Lord. I always felt it was oh just a respect thing, like fear the Lord = respect the Lord. But now I feel it sometimes (maybe all the time) really does mean FEAR the Lord and being VERY aware of his power and dominion over all things.


My desire more than anything right now is just to stay plugged in. Like plugged in and in tune with God. To have that strong connection and for others around me to lift and encourage me. I guess in order for that to happen you have to be an open book....um about that...i guess that's my prayer points right now, to be an open book and to fully attach myself with like minded people. People who strongly desire to be plugged in and just be in tune with God.


Well, my study break is over. Time to head back to the books. Adios!!!